I have 2 moods.
1. I’m too high for this shit.
2. I’m not high enough for this shit.
I wonder if he thought about me. Did he ever feel anything. Was the feelings ever mutual for a quick second. Did he ever consider how i felt. I would forget me too. He was everyone fantasy he was my sunshine and i was only a on looker who couldn’t touch the sun.
Second week of school and I’ve been mocked over 15 times about my weight.
Secondly a guy who played with my emotions for 6months sister goes there.
And a guy looks and mimics my first love Jordan and seeing him makes my stomach turn into knots and i remember every single moment i had with him. Everything hitting me at once and i just can’t keep going on. My heart pounds and i lose my train of thought around him like he’s jordan. I become my old insecure self again and i feel bare infront of him because i see only Jordan. Same height a little darker hair color and his eyes are ocean blue rather than warm olive green i once remember seeing.
And the comments reminding me of my imperfections aren’t helping i just wanna stay home all day.